Tobias Johnson/Diary

Feb 20, 2015
Dear Diary,

It's the first time I do something like this but Kathy told me that writing about my day should help me feel less lonely. So today I've went to Wilson's Coffee shop, I just had to get out of the house. On my way walking there, I saw a poor old man lying on the ground with garbage on his clothes, he looked was disgusting. When I got to my destination, I saw Zack Pattinson, he's not a bad person but I've hated the fact that his father always gifts him incredible stuff, my father wouldn't do that to me in a million years, I will never forgive that scum. On my way back home I saw the same poor man but this time, he was surrounded by medical personnel, and a puddle of blood was on the street floor, I wasn't surprised, he decided to die instead of living the way he was, I hope I won't end up like him in the future.

Feb 21, 2015
Dear Diary,

I'm kinda enjoying writing this to be completely honest, I guess Kathy was right. Anyways, today nothing was out of the ordinary, I went on with my day as any other, which would be really dull, but one little event stood out to my surprise, I found my old blanket! It's a light blue blanket with snow patterns on it, but it has seen better days then this one, I remember when I was still a young child, I used to always sleep with it, that blanket was my only friend before I met Charles, Kathy still thinks that Charles isn't real by the way, she's so close minded in this subject. I burned my blanket afterwards, I think it deserves to go to a place far away from this nasty world we live in.

Feb 22, 2015
Dear Diary,

Today I woke up quite late, It was mostly because I slept at 5 am yesterday but whatever. Once I woke up, it was already noon, so when I checked to see if someone was in the house, I found it empty, turns out mom and Kathy had left to O'Toole's for a nice meal without me. So I made ramen noodles and ate them in bed, this was happening quite often, so I decided that I was going to learn how to cook so that I can get a step closer to being an independent person, and a step closer to leaving this rotten place and never coming back.

Feb 23, 2015
Dear Diary,

For some reason, I've been feeling like something is missing in my life, and it's not the gap that the ingrat created, it's more of a feeling that I've wanted to share with Charles but it never quite felt authentic that way. I am missing something, what it is, well that's a mystery I'll have to uncover in the future but for now I need to get my head straight. I've been avoiding my mother as much as possible, the plain sight of her makes me uncomfortable, I've never wanted to deal with her after the accident, and I will never forgive her for what she did.

Feb 24, 2015
Dear Diary,

School was awful today, at lunch break I had been beat up by two d-bags for defending some girl they were harassing, I got some hits on them but they got the better of me and rendered me to a black eye. Unfortunately everybody noticed it and rumours about this started to go around, even the girl I helped out started to stand against me, I wish now that I didn't get involved in the first place. I hate them, all of them students and teachers at Springston High! One day I will make them pay, all of them will pay!

Feb 25, 2015
Dear Diary,

Usually every night, dinner would be held separately in the house, but tonight my mother decided that it would be a good idea to have a "dinner as a family", I find it naïve of her to even accept herself a part of this family anymore, but Kathy was being forced into it and I couldn't let her suffer that by herself. So when it started, everything was awkwardly silent, until the moment Emily asked me about my swollen eye, it hadn't healed completely yet from yesterday, so I just decided to tell her the naked truth. She then insulted my bullies by calling them barbarians, she wasn't wrong but I did not expect her to approve the fact that I would engage in fights. I always despised sharing information with her, I noticed her joy in knowing every detail of my life, she obviously enjoyed sticking her nose in my business, so I took that pleasure away from her as soon as I saw it, I shut up before finishing the story. I knew I had to eliminate any hopes of having another similar conversation with her, and Kathy wanted desperately to escape this scenario as soon as possible, so I spit out a piece of the chicken breast we were eating, declaring it tasted like crap and that I would rather go to sleep immediately. Emily did not seem shocked, she accepted it, it made me furious. Soon after, Kathy followed and dinner was over.

Feb 26, 2015
Dear Diary,

Today I got to school late, as per usual, but this time the worst person who could notice me, happened to be coming up the stairs I was coming down to get to my chemistry class. I am talking about the Springston High headmaster, Mr Fitzhermann, and he wasn't tolerant at all when it came to undisciplined behavior such as arriving late to class without notice. I hated him ever since he decided to suspend Kathy after he found out she was using her cell phone in class, which was a few months ago. SO I knew what was coming to me, he roasted me, and he just went on and on about punctuality and the same nonsense that I find utterly useless and annoying. And I actually think he wasted so much of my time that I wanted to kick him in the family jewels, I almost did it. But when he was done he dismissed me and I went to class in the worst mood, once I finish this last year, I am never coming back to this hell hole, and I certainly will not miss that infuriating headmaster!

Feb 27, 2015
Dear Diary,

Tonight I went out to a party organised by some classmates to celebrate someone's birthday I guess, I didn't really care for I only came for the cake. The cake was a three levels high cake with frosting all over it in an attempt to decorate the already amazing chocolate with white squiggly lines, it gives it more depth I think. Chocolate cake is my weakness, mine and Charles' actually. It sometimes keeps my mind relaxed, out of this constant rage that devours me, I even think it helps me forget about my worries, and that in itself worries me, which is why I allow myself to have it only once or twice a month. I don't want to be dependent on cake, if I do so it's going to get the best of me, like what smoking does to some people, including me which I regret strongly.

Feb 28, 2015
Dear Diary,

I think it's about time you get a name, I have been feeling a special connection while writing you, you are my own monalisa, made by the words that come out of my fingers and onto you, forged by the day to day caucase that is my life. Kathy was right, you make me feel less lonely, like if you were my close friend, and I have almost never had a close friend except Charles. I will call you after my favourite colour, Violet.

Mar 1, 2015
Dear Violet,

I can still see the pain in Emily's eyes. It's obvious she's hurt by the night where her "family dinner" went south. She's been so naïve to think she can fix this family after she destroyed it with her own hands. I am nothing like her or the ingrat, when I have children, I will never do anything to upset them and I would love them to death. In other news, Kathy and Charles think that I need to find a friend, and especially a girlfriend, because my frog died of poisoning today, it wasn't as sad as I thought it would be to leave her. But Violet, now that I got you to talk to, I don't need a girlfriend to feel less lonely.

Mar 2, 2015
Dear Violet,

To my surprise, today I found out that my grades are very negative, if it wasn't for Kathy, i would never br accepted in any university. I don't actually care about how I get my grades up, as long as I can get into the best university there is, I'm satisfied, I always thought that if I got into a good university, then my life would be easier, people will start respecting me and valuing me more, but now i've seen a bigger purpose, if I get into a remarkable university, I have a chance to finally get away from my parents and live a happy life! I just can't wait till then, and if anything ruins my plan, I will go crazy!

Mar 3, 2015
Dear Violet,

After school today, I took Kathy in my good old chevi to Ember Mall, we both needed to get new clothes for the upcoming season and thankfully for us, we were loaded. First off we went to Labombie & Filch and I got myself a brand spanking new black hoodie with cool stars on it. Kathy told me it looked awesome on me, and recommended a new pair of Hay Bans like hers. Then she went to Bishka and I went to a newly opened record store called Boom Tunes, they have a great variety of albums and songs but they also have an atrocious taste in music most of the time. I bought some Kurt Cobain and a few of Nirvana's, I have been loving their style lately. Soon after we had lunch at Toasters and then headed home.

Mar 4, 2015


Dear Violet,

When I first thought about it, drawing was just a hobby I did to make my books or my walls cooler. Now I have entered a mini-drawing competition in school and I submitted "Famous", I mostly got inspired by it when I was watching the new Elements movie, the left side is a Falcon, the right one is a mocking Jay with a cow skull on it, but it mostly represents the image created by us for others versus who they really are, hopefully they enjoy it, and if you don't mind I'll glue a picture I took of it in here so in case they take it off me I can at least remember it.

Mar 5, 2015
Dear Violet,

They are going to announce the winners tomorrow. Thankfully the number of drawings they had to evaluate diminished, and if that wasn't lucky enough, one of the judges happily told me that Famous is intact. In other news, Emily's going out more often, I honestly do not care about her anymore, I don't even know what the ingrat does with his life anymore. I heard he would go to the Springston Inn on saturdays, he did have a drinking problem. One day, he will see me, and I will look him in the eye, and say "You hurt me... What do you have to say father?" that is the day that I will recognise my destiny through his answer. In the meanwhile, I will keep my thoughts to you, and Charles doesn't need to know.